It’s something that slowly tore me down over 20 years. I didn’t think it had because I recognized he and his family do it to me a lot. I thought because I recognized it surely I wasn’t reacting to it. However, we see ourselves a lot through our husband’s eyes and their words do change our perception. The constant antagonism to what I would say and I had to laugh at your question because quite literally one day after I confronted him about it we were driving in the car and I looked out the window and said wow the sky is so blue. He looks and responded with, no it looks grayish it may rain. I looked again and said, yeah, I guess your right it does look a bit gray. He said no it’s blue. I glared at him and laughed and said really? It extends into other things though. It’s not just the opposite of what I say, it’s the opposite of what I do. If I buy him a shirt he won’t wear it. If I suggest a restaurant he’ll suddenly crave another. He used to absolutely love chocolate, I bought him a chocolate bar and he said he didn’t like it anymore. He doesn’t know why he does these things.
I guess I got my bed ready and since it looked so good I crawled in and passed out!! A few hours later I woke up, and wondered where my date was. So I go outside to retrieve her. Sure enough she is in the passenger seat passed out. I wake her up and she is a little mad and says let’s just drive back since we are sober. I just tell her that we can just go straight to my room the coast is clear. We start off and are going it, the heart starts beating which brings back a little of the stuff we invested earlier. Its my only excuse because instead of being discrete we start getting into it and she is being loud. I don’t gag her, instead I start laying into her with the dirty talk she always loved.